Im pretty sure my mission is to learn to trust the right people. Or discredit everyone and only trust myself. Will fabricate over this one.
Other thing what haunts me is karma probably. Few years ago i did hurt someone really really bad. And actually i think about it everyday. What we both did wrong and how did it go that far. Probably we both were young and dumb and reckless. I thought i was so over it cause it was years ago and we all have moved on with our lives. But sometimes theres other prospects in the game and you just can't fucking accept it even when you try really bad.
Now seems like all this shit starts to catch up with me… Thats just too much even for me to handle. When the person who meant the world to me once and the other person who i trusted like 10000000% and who was my best friend ever both fucking stabbed me in the back hardcore.
I didn't wanna lose my best friend and when she betrayed me like the shittiest way you can imagine and i assured to her that its okey and whatever she did won't affect our friendship because she said she wasn't right at that time and it will not ever happen again.
But you know how they say..fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me. So imma dummy.
